Tuesday night at midnight:
I am up late once again and felt the urge to write to get all of this out of my heart and mind. So...here goes:).
The last couple months have been extremely difficult. We've been hit hard with so much stuff that I have just been trying to 'survive the day'. Well ya know what, I'm tired of surviving the day I am ready to LIVE again!! My faith is solid, my marriage is good, I am surrounded by fantastic friends, I love instructing zumba and of course my kids are the highlight of each day but I am sick and tired of being sick and tired! On Oct. 22, I got diagnoised with mono and since then I've had strep, migraines, horrible sinuses, MAJOR fatigue, wierd yellow eyes, plantar fachitus, and a sprained ankle. I've never been sick like this in my life and have done more bloodwork and tests than you can imagine. Everything keeps coming back "normal" which is great except I feel lousy every day. Blah blah blah..,:). I also feel terrible that my husband is having to deal with all my wierd health stuff when he needs me to be strong for him right now. Throughout this season of life God is still moving, still listening still covering us with only the strength, love and grace and revealing himself to us all the time. The last few weeks we have been discussing conditions of the heart in our zumba devotion. I have struggled with each and every one: control, self-pity, jealousy, anger, pride. I know the Lord is patiently waiting for me to get these lessons but I am having a hard time not falling into a frusturated mind set, and that's not a good place for me to be. As I'm studying to prepare my lessons I hear God asking me if I believe what the Bible says. Do I really believe that That I can cast my cares and anxiety on Him, that HE makes all things new, and HE will fight for me I just need to be still. So tonight at 12:52 I am claiming your word Lord, and I am done, done, done with all this!!
Take that Satan.
We are in hillcrest hospital tonight with our beloved Ally as she heals from the most terrible stmach situation of her life. She seems to be feeling a little better and is enjoying her new coloring book from Aunt Kacey. Please keep us in your prayers tonight and pray protection over the rest if our family. Still claiming truth!
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